2012 has been a crazy year, filled with busyness, joy, sorrow, and of coarse lots of music. The Generation had the chance to lead worship for a few retreats early in the year, Running Five even played a couple gigs, but the bulk of my time and music has gone into getting married and my Ministry with LifeBridge.
In August I was hired on full time as the Student Impact Worship Pastor at LifeBridge Christian Church in Longmont Colorado, Later that month I tied the knot with the Love of my life the women formerly known as Katie Riley (which was the best decision I have made). Things kind of got crazy from there; not long into our marriage we experienced a loss of my wife’s cousin and very dear friend. Staff Sargent Christopher Birdwell was killed in action on August 27th fighting for our country in Afganistan. This was a loss that hit all of us very hard, and continues to provide struggle and hurt.
In the midst of this hard time coming so soon after one of the happiest days of our lives It has been a struggle, but as we have learned to turn to Him more it is amazing to see how God has used this experience to draw us closer to each other, and to us closer to Him. As humans we tend to take life for granted until on we lose someone close to us, but even then we can tend to fall back into life as normal.
Jeremiah 29: 11-13
11For I know the plans I have for you, declares theLord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.12Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. 13You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart.
This verse has been rolling around in my head for the last few months, if we truly embrace that fact that God has a plan for us. We tend to go about our days doing the things that we believe are right for us, we pray “God help me______” fill in the blank. instead of trusting God and his plan. Now Before I continue, I have to say I firmly believe it is never God’s plan for us to have deep hurt, or loss, but it’s how we respond to those situations. What would our lives look like if our prayer was “God let your will be done in every aspect of my life, use me for you plan and purpose”
A few days after Chris’s funeral I remember sitting in the kitchen with Katie, talking about what it would be like to have the faith of those in the early church, and what our lives would look like if in times of victory and times of struggle our prayer was “God Let Your Will Be Done”; and not only prayed that but truly trusted that God would take care of us and our needs (let me just remind you we are taking about needs not wants) I will admit this is still one of the hardest prayers to pray, because God’s plan is not our plan and very well can take us places and put us in situations that make us uncomfortable, and frustrated, but if we trust that God has a plan for us, and that our understanding will never even be close to his, hardship can turn into opportunity.
Every year at LifeBridge we have what is called the Blue Christmas Service, it’s a Service focused towards people who have had loss, hardship, any reason that Christmas maybe not the happy season we all make it out to be. This year we have several video spots of people sharing their stories, and sharing how the truth and hope of Christ’s birth is how we can get through those experiences . Katie had an opportunity to share her story of the summers events, and closed with a statement that proved God’s hand working in heart through the pain.
“The Way we will get through Christmas, is knowing there is hope, and Chris is fine, and Happy, and has more understanding than we do. He’s not in hurting, He’s not in pain, and he knows Jesus, and is with Jesus”
God takes every part of our lives and uses it to teach us, uses it to shape who we are as Kingdom workers. So in times of Joy, times of struggle if we could be true in praying “God let your will be done, show me what you have in store for me” then day by day we could begin to have bits and pieces of the understanding Chris has, and that we will have in being untied with Christ.
2013 will be a year with its own adventures and own heart aches, but most importantly it will be a year of seeking God’s will, and learning to better walk beside him discovering his plan for my life.
Updates on music stuff for 2013
2013 is a year to get things going again Musically i have set goals to be constantly writing and recording new songs, as well as plan to have a solo album out by July or August. This album will be a compilation of Some older Running Five tunes, solo songs i have been writing for a while, and a will end with a shot worship EP. I am looking forward to the project and all the folks who will be collaborating on it. other than that, keep and eye out on the Tour page for shows from Running Five and The Generation, as well and worship events, and services im leading. Happy New Year.